May 8th, 2005

when you touch me


Wish I could hold you
Just for a little while, let me
I wish I could see you right now
But you're so far away
It's driving me crazy
I'm missing you baby
And the way you touch me
It's not like anything I've ever felt before
That's how I know I am yours


Maybe Brandy's "Full Moon" was an underrated album alongside "Afrodisiac"...It's refreshing to listen to Brandy, she's slowly developing into one of my favorite singers. =)

I think now is the time to definitely make up in my mind what I wanna do with me and how I'ma get there. I definitely need to get some priorities in line, and some dreams in order. I need to start making steps towards those dreams. Cause right now I see college isn't for me. My ambitions and dreams are to get the fuck outta college as fast as possible and definitely get outta the state of Florida. I wanna explore another side of the world, maybe move back to Houston, but somewhere explore my dreams and ambitions. I definitely need to take the reins of my life and do what it is I feel is most beneficial to me. I feel that in my heart...

The stigma of being a black male homosexual trips me out sometime...It's like you get categorized all the time as "gay". Oh yea, Michael, that gay boy from Total Kaos? or You know he's gay right? Hasan was speaking on this earlier and I definitely agree...And then society wonders why people don't come out openly even though it's widely accepted.

I need to dance...I need to do something...I think I'ma start working on some more 8 counts and definitely choreograph this whole entire song: Keyshia Cole's "I Just Want It To Be (Over)". The horns are sick on that song.

Am I finally slowly receding? I think I'm slowly pulling back all my emotions and placing them back into one piece. I think I'm finally healing my broken heart... Time to wake up and smell the shit that was all over his ass...LOL That's life though, to live, learn, and experience... Anyway I do have a crush on a small entity of my life...But thas top secret and besides that all it will be is a crush...Enough about all that...I gotta go
  • Current Music
    Brandy- When You Touch Me

little boy


i really miss you
the way you used to be
so softspoken and gentle
so self confident
head back, shoulders upright
so naive
so innocent to the winds of this world
ready to jump at any challenge
heart open, giving to the last drop

sometimes i close my eyes
and wish you back into my soul
i wish to hold you in my sleep at night
i pray i'll find you in the next lifetime

we'll meet again, little boy
then we shall never part
cause in my heart
i know the ways of this world
and who I want to be is all in my reach
never let no one stop me
follow my heart beat
so i apologize little boy
that you couldn't be with me

can't take back the way my life has been
don't regret finding this place of calm
but i know if I did some things differently
wouldn't miss my little boy at all
you'd be right here inside of my heart
living your life, growing up so tall

sometimes i close my eyes
and wish you back into my soul
i wish to hold you in my sleep at night
i pray i'll find you in the next lifetime

we'll meet again, little boy
then we shall never part
cause in my heart
i know the ways of this world
and who I want to be is all in my reach
to never let no one stop me
follow my heart beat
go with what make me happy
so i apologize little boy
that you couldn't be with me

maybe in the next lifetime..
maybe, just maybe
we'll see each other once more
maybe in the next lifetime...
maybe, just maybe
i won't push you out the door...

sometimes i open my eyes and realize
your back in my life
i pray i could hold onto you when i close my eyes

[Chorus]

written by michael ward...may 8th 2005
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